Its a Hit

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Tue, 25 Jan 2005 23:58:28 GMT

So, i got sick of my old live journal so i made a new one. and if you love you you'll go add me now.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.livejournal.com/users/itsahitt/

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 05:19:02 GMT

so im thinking about getting a new journal im sick of meltwithyouxx, haha. mabye someone can help?

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 06:44:01 GMT

Ok. so i just want this entry to be kinda about skyler. and how thankful i am for him. i just thank god that hes here and that hes in my life. and hes just, i cant word it on here but one of the most amazingly wonderful people i know. i can say that about very few people on this earth. and hes one of them. and im glad hes alive and that gods taking care of him and i thank God for putting him in MY life. mine of all. im blessed beyond belief. and i dont think i say that enough. hes my best friend. ok hes ok. im just so happy. ok here i go, heres some pictures of us having fun last night.

He has one of the most beautiful pairs of eyes ive ever seen.:

haha

[hes gonna kill me for that one but i love it with all my heart; &hearts; &hearts;]

whats that smirk there for? hehe

beautiful. &hearts;

haha, aweeeeeeeeeeeeee

Agh. i love being around him and with him. he never hurts me. he takes good care of me and i couldnt be happier right now, the end.

Remember all the simple things you know.

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 07:02:25 GMT

all american rejects are my favorite again. there mine and skylers band. ♥ ♥

Im so cool sometimes

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 05:19:52 GMT

im, pretty much, siik.

um i hear pple say ther read this "junk" but i aint hardly gettin comments. : - /, hook me up!

clap clap

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 07:09:38 GMT

Tonight was fun with skyyyler. we went to church, and then ate, then went to the park.

[Hes so cute]

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 07:34:08 GMT

Please forgive me if i ever did anything to you, out of all seriousness.

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 21:06:21 GMT

I hate hurting people and Jesus.

Aw

Sun, 16 Jan 2005 07:49:26 GMT

K.. sooo... wednesday night, was pretty much really great, thursday night, was better, ok so jared and daniellle and skyler come over and we have a crazy A dance party in my roooom, and oh my gosh, booty dancin with jared, and him being better than me, at droppin it and booty shakes? oh my gosh. hes got black girl in him. haha wow that kid, call me up if theres any ghetto parties comin up and me and him will go. haha anyways.... and then me and skyler slow danced and fast danced to the district sleeps alone tonight. it was fun. and we danced to the the faint, and AHHHH just it was such a fun night. man man man.

friday was SO SO good. ok so. school was fun, then after school we go to my house, and freaking see little homie day care, and then after that i got yelled at by my dad but its ok i love him allot.. haha anyways then we go to LOLITAS best ever, and then to my ball game. and I MADE A SHOT, the last one. so my celebration (since im only making one this whole year) was a burrito. haha. then we go to skylers... and we watched half of garden state, then we just hung out... then uhh yeah. just i had alot of fun with sky last night. we freaking laughed so much together.

Can you guys pray for me? just personal. i would really appreciate it.

[my boyyy and me thursday]:

P.S, rollerskating tomarrow anyone? no lies. call me: (u can ask me fo my numba if you wanna hit the rink up, im seriously down, call me)

skateeee

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 05:43:42 GMT

I WANT TO GO TO ROLLER SKATE LAND,AND ROLLERBLADE!!!
...does anybody want to hit that up with me??

We cry holy holy holy

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 05:56:11 GMT

God has blessed me so much. speaking to me, giving me things i prayed for, being great to me, showing me real love, &hearts;

♥

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 06:54:11 GMT

January 7th, 2005. Best day ever.

Connecticut and new york pictures.

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 01:28:46 GMT

Pictures from my trip &hearts;

It was indeed prally the best trip to CT and a good time in NYC.

♥

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 06:34:46 GMT

Best day in a very long time. I cant even explain.

Oversea sounds

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 02:44:12 GMT

ok, ackward, but the new pornographers are SO good. i just cant get over it. and the shins, oh my my. the shins. so so good.

Im really excited to be home, im going home tomarrow. ijust have to remember to do all my homework on the plain because im so behind. haha

Well. if you only knew how happy i was with what Gods doing for me and this boy. Jesus is just. amazing me beyoond belief. I cant explain it. agh, im seeing him tomarrow. i just want to hold his hand. heh ♥ ♥

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 16:08:03 GMT

Im sick of like old school churches, like roman catholics and even modern catholics.
im sick of it. im sick of poeple who think Jesus is a religion and they think that he wont love them if they dont go to a certin type of church.
Im tired of people looking beyond the point.
Jesus is not going to love you for what you look like, he isint going to love you for how much you go to church, its always a blessing to participate like do things with the church but he isint going to lover you more if you do...
I want it to be just me and Jesus and my church. i love my church. its so laid back. and i know poeple dont always think thats a good thing. but i do.
because it proves the point that Jesus is looking into your heart. not how you dress. and i know i am involved with the whole fashion show for church ordeal.
i know i am. Its lame and i dont like that, but the truth is, i live in california, but..
honestly, i can honestly say i dont go to church to mingle if none of my friends were there, id still go if i was the only one just to worship God. i love my church and how it is.
I just want it to be me and Jesus, him looking into my heart, not my clothing. because hes not like that. and i want to be so close to him. closer than ever.

Another thing, Im so happy, God revealed to me why he doesnt want me talking to certin people and for a long time i know i was pushing it because i was uncertin and scared to lose the best of a friendship.

but, God will put and remove poeple in my life. and i just need to pray for the best fridnd possible, and i know skyler is one of those poeple, but untill im completely comfertable with this amazing boy, I need to tell God everyhting and he needs to be my bestest friend, more than before.

YOU GUYS NEED TO COMENT DAG NABBET! last one, none? whats with this! its obserd or however you spel it, haha well I love you all. I hope you guys love how blunt i can be sometimes.. haha because Lord knows im blunt, very much so. oh eyah and sorry for never making sence, but tell me if i am it will help me be more confident to speak how i feel without sounding like a complete idiot.

i love waking up all excited for church and my riude not showing up! i love getting so anxious to spend time with God that i walk to any church i see and it happens to be episcapal, i love getting aghrivated with how strict it is and walking out! i love it! haha

Once again i look upon the cross where you died, im humbled by your mercy and im broken inside, once again i thank you, once again i pour out my life.

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 06:54:45 GMT

You know. i just got done reading somehitng. and it made me think. ok on christmas this year i was upset. becausze under the tree was a little box, a victoria secret gift card and a card. and im like well i got jippped this christmas. and its sad ebcause i really felt like i did. even though im getting a shopping spree in new york, and a trip there! thats expensive. and theres people that are just ahappy to ave love and eachother for christmas. i hate how im so greedy sometimes. its sad. and ive been kinda hurting lately with, not only being greedy, but just. being lazy with reading my bible. i just hope it changes quick before it gets out of hand. because even right now im like ok i should read. but i dont want to take time out of my lauzy life that has no meaning without Jesus Christ, and just read a story and talk to him. it makes me cry that im like that sometimes WHY EOULDNT I WANT TO READ A LOVE LETTER WRITTEN TO ME, and just watch out signs because these things that i read r to protect me not to lecture me. UUGH. as im on the airplane, please pray i dont read magazines and listen to music the whole time? please pray that my time is not focused around money and friends in connecticut and new york? please please pray for me. that i come back more in Love with my maker my wound healer more than ive ever been? thank you.

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 22:02:31 GMT

Im going to copy brittney...

what i got for Christmas:

Dad:

1 trip to new york
victoria secret gift card
money
money
money

Uncle jack:

money
white gold earings

Hew:

slutty skirt
beanie

Chris:

urban outfitters gift card

Aunt kathy:

Gap soft P.J's

and pretty much joey wins for getting me tina turner on DVD. everyone else sucks, the end.

JP i love you guysssss everyoneeee MERRY CHRISTmas

I just got it, and i get it.

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 07:59:00 GMT

oooooohhhhh Looordddddddd, we exahlt thee!
Phil wickam was good.
I saw justinnnn last nighttttt!! i missed that flippin nigga. Last night was fun, good and bad fun. haha
uhh (yeah).

Spagetti factory is shutting down, thats so gay gay gay, my mom gave birth to me there! i went there every saturday for 5 years!

Skyler, is good. he took me to see christmas lights tonight. it made meeeee feliz! heh

I know this entry is lame because i said allot of the same stuff on my xanga. haha uhh............. im going to go now.

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 22:29:33 GMT

if those anonymous poeple keep commenting n skylers LJ i swear.. ugh. haha i love how this is getting to me, but anyways...

Im flippin excited for connecticut and new york i get tpo see my baby lauren, and then the 29th i get to freaking go to new york and shop all day for 2 days, come on now. wow. <3333

Um merry almost christtttttttttttttmasssssssssssssssss

I love joey. haha hes just so, "OH HEY TJ HENDERSON!" ♥

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 23:08:04 GMT

sup? Im gonna have a fun week, hanging out with bff's, giving christmas presents, disneyland thursday, next week i leave for connecticut and NYC nucca'z!

Mabye some of you guys want to hang out with me, because i want to hang out with you guys...

Um yesturday was fun fun, went christmas shopping, [I ONLY HAVE ONE MORE PRESENT NOW]then i was suposto go ot chelseas and lauras sleep over but didnt, so instead randomly i see sarah at the mall, and shes like lets sleep at brittneys! but then skyler came and got meeee, and we went to jonnies ravioli party [fun btw] then skyler took me and danielle to sarahs and we took off to brittneys, dang they saw a crazy side of kelly kathleen turner, i feel bad for devey had to see me all crazy. haha anyways. yeah thats it.

EFFN COMMENT! ♥♥

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 04:30:21 GMT

1.What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
got crunk

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
um sure, to ba di dont remember what it was...

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
um.. no
4. Did anyone close to you die?

my mom but that was end of 2003

5. What countries did you visit?
mexicooo not TJ, puerto vallarta

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
humble

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

APRIL 28th, i belive?? but 1st time i led somene to the Lord

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
growing spiritually, so much.

9. What was your biggest failure?
allot ill have to say.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
um john gave me the one day stomach flu?

11. What was the best thing you bought?

i boughtcoupple pairs of 7ns... haha

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
umm...

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
umm...
14. Where did most of your money go?
frekn clothes and food

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
my aunt getting married

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
usher-yeah

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

closer to God, more patience, more understanding, a betterson/daughter(lol jk/rilo) umm.. and im way way way better about my low selfesteem, its higher. :)

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

trusting God

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
fight with joey and danielle

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With my dad and brothers...

20. How will you be spending New Years?
in connecticut with one of my best friends lauren

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
Yes.

23. How many one-night stands?
none. haha
24. What was your favorite TV program?
nada but i did like real world san diego

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
i dont hate people.

26. What was the best book you read?
Wait for me

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
the unicorns!! because i was 1st im san diego to hear about them! HA HA

28. What did you want and got?
an ipod

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
passion of the Christ

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
im 16, and i freakn got crunk with joey christian john jessica christian pedro and sean! and went quarter dapping and got down at christians aunts house, best ever.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
a mom.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
SIIICK

34. What kept you sane?

John and God
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
mary-kate and ashley

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
KERRY BEING NOMINATED FOR EFFING PRESIDENT! and loosing, haha

37. Who did you miss?
my mom for sure
38. Who was the best new person you met?
skyler

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
If a nigga get an attitude, pop it like its hot.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. "Feel the pain teaching us how much more we can take, reminding us, how far weve come, let the pain put away from our hearts, we have time to start all over again"

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 21:49:37 GMT

Well, i havent updated in a while, but i would like to make everyone a promise, im doing great.

Ok., so i like someone... allot ♥ ♥

this is long but you will smile towards the end so read it. Smiling is never bad.

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 06:28:53 GMT

December 12th 2003

I know this is going to be a very long entry but i promise you will smile towards the end

wow-lived so much today, more this morning it hurt than anyhting. i just remember, like (this is me talking a year ago) like my mom my beautiful sweet cute mom waking me up b4 she does to the swap meet at 10 and sais kelly i guess ur not going to school today i let you sleep in, haha. So shes like im going, ill see you later, and she leaves, and then josh comes to get me, (my really awsome youth leader) and we get joey, and we go eat at plaza bonita, and i ate a phili cheese steak sandwitch, and we leave there and we go to horizon and we get the video camera and were intervewing people for sunday night church about heaven and hell and what they think about it, and then john joins us, and then we go to johns house and the 3 of us, me joey and john wanted to get into mischief, like go toilet papering, haha we called like eileene and pedro and anyone who drove to go with us, and my mom called me at like 7:30 and shes like "da** it kelly where are you ur suposto be home come home now" and im like NO MOM IM NOT GOING HOME ILL BE HOME AT 11 OR 12 and shes like "well dads not home hes at a party so hes not coming home till late, so come home" and im like mom no im not coming home till 11 or somehitng dont worry about me though ill be ok, so she hangs up. and im like UUGGHH YOU GUYS, I HATE MY MOM SHES EVIL!!! and im like yeah i told me mom ill be home at 11 but ill prally be home at like 2 haha. so.. no 1 could drive us to have fun.. and then my mom called me back and is like, well kelly im going to sleep DONT WAKE ME UP when you get home. im like ok, shes like I LOVE YOU KELLY GOODNIGHT, and im like i love you too mom see you later. (the last words i ever said to her ever) so. joeys dad comes around 8:30 and.. he took me home and A.J was singing jingle bells and i was recording it on my fone it was so cute, and then i get out of the car, i go in the house theyn drive away, and i go in the house and i go pee, and usually id NEVER do this ever. but after i pee, i go in my moms room to tell her im home, and im like mom im home, and (from the medication she takes it knocks her out, sleeping medication) and i kinda knew she would be groggy, but she didint answer and im like somewhat raising my voice, and im like mom im home!! and she still didint do anyhting, and i did ti again but im like yelling, and then i go and shake her.. and then i was yelling in her face IM HOME MOM WAKE UP NOW IM HOME IM HOME!!!!!!!!! so i slapped her on the arm and then my body drops and im shaking so so bad, and im yelling so loud... so loudd, and i called 911 and im like i cant wake my mom up please come wake her up shes not waking up!!!!!! and they were TRYING to calm me down and then the lady was like go give her mouth to mouth, so i ran in there and i gave her mouth to mouth even though i knew she wasent aive and i ran out and said she didnt do anyhting and then they came and trying to re vive her but she wasent doing anything and im praying and praying GOD WAKE HER UP GOD LET HER WAKE UP AND EVERYHITNG BE OK! and then i called joey and said come home now and they did and (wow sorry im hurting bad writing this) they took me to the hospital and i couldnt get ahoold of my dad or brothers and then hew answers and im yelling moms not waking up were going to the hospital, so he gets there after i do, and im in that UGLY WAITING ROO, THE GLY PINK ONE!!!! and then the doctor comes in the and said she didnt make it and i just start yellin g and hitting my self and yelling and crying and uugghhhh hew heard him say that and then my brother chris wasent picking up the fone and he gets there after, and.. he was in shock, and my dad isSTIILL no where to be found, and.. then we get in the room where my mom is and she was like cold and loosing color, and we just all hold her hand and say bye and i gave her a kiss and told her i love her, then danielle andjohn get there and.. then all of everyone who was with me went to my house, and we just all went home and cried all night and my dad gets home from having a "good time" he was "drunk" and (sorry im just alittle bitter of how he was that night and that i couldnt get ahold of him) and we tell him and hes weeping and falls falls to the ground. and..

just. this night that im descibing in full detale is one of the hardest things i've ever dealt with.

Today 12-12-04 ive grown SO SO SO much through this year and God has blessed me with struggles and happiness. and in everyhitng i do, i find joy. And today i found Joy. in the past ive had joy, God never leaves my side and i know everyhitng is happened for a reason and i respect that and i know Gods using this situation in my life for a reason. and imcited. because Gods works amaze me so much and i couldnt say how or course upset i am about my mom, but then again happy because someone more important than me, loves me more than ever and has plans for me and never leaves my side even through this night i just described, if i were a normal teenager, im pretty sure, id eather be pregnant, drinking, or on drugs or dead. but i have smething so much rgeater thsn that in my life. And im proud to say that nomader what, ive trusted God and i always will even if something worse were to happen to me. but not to be mean this wasent a bad thing it hurt me allot but God knows what i can and cant handdle. and he knew i could handdle this. I love my Lord, for it is true, he will never EVER EVER leave me nor forsake me.

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 02:16:40 GMT

dang. i went to the gym today and i freaking ran and jogged and walked all together for 45 minutes!! then I WALKED HOME! freaking 5 miles all together!

haha yeah im proud. kindov.

wow oh and since i dont read and all be really proud of me. i freaking read A WHOLE BOOK today. it took me like 4 or 5 hours though. but still thats good. i dont even read!!

Oh. and i failed a test and i have to RE (because im a RE RE) do the section. lame slash gay to the max siiic huh? lol

Umm.... I think i need more live journal love. can we agree on that since i love on almost everyone on here?? dang gina.